Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Facing Windows...a letter

My dear Simone.
After you, red is no longer red.
The blue of the sky is no longer blue.
The trees are no longer green.
I have to search for colors in the yearnings I have for us.
After you, I miss even the pain that made our love timid and secret.
I miss the waiting, the relinquishing,
the coded messages.
The stolen glances in a world full of blind people
who didn't want to see,
because if they'd seen us it would have been their shame,
their hatred,
their cruelty.
I regret I haven't had the courage to ask your forgiveness
and that is why I can no longer even look inside your window.
That is where I always saw you, even when I didn't know your name,
and you dreamed of a better world.
A world where a tree was not forbidden to be a tree.
Or for blue to become the sky.
I don't know if this is a better world.
How can I say this is a better world?
How can I say that without you?

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